Niamh's Diary

Dear Diary,

I wonder how long until Uncle Julian kills someone for irritating him. It's really rather sickeningly amusing and sad all at the same time. I can honestly say that I've never realized how many people in Amber will show up with idiotic reasons, or none at all, just to stare at someone. I think half the things people show up for are fabricated, and then on top of that...they never get to the point. On and on and ON they talk. Even I'm ready to smack some people around.

On a more cheerful note. I owe Addison a wiggly dance for a bet. And I might just get to decorate Caine's rooms. I think I'll find purple crushed velvet for the sofa.

Prince Brand has made me Court Artist. It's quite an honor on two different levels. First, he's such a renowned artist himself..and second, Court Artist. Hello.

I wish all things were going well. But, there's some not so good things going on as well. I've made some decisions..now to just follow through. Hopefully..it wont end badly for me.

Also, need to drop in on Uncle Caine for a meeting.

I'm sick and tired of people deciding they have the right to disrespect me, to ignore me. I've never been one that's fond of violence, but it appears as though I shall have to become fond of it. I mourn this day...Gone is the fun loving, care free Niamh..and in her place..Well, I'm not sure what will end up in her place by the time this is done.


Please forgive me...

Rae had a vision..and it wasn't about monsters. It was a very good vision though!

Saul's in Weirmonken. Got to bond. Sort of. Talk atleast.

Father has left me in charge of Weirmonken while he is away. I'm not sure yet if that's a good thing or not. I don't really know what I'm supposed to be doing, but thankfully, everyone seems to know their place. As Faelin put it, father's kingdom is very stable.

Kazimir's right though....it is lonely at the top. Everyone's treating me differently. Spoke with father, passed along news about Desmond, and asked how long he'd be gone. He wasn't terribly sure..a week or more.

Apparently Uncle Tristan told Nik that I should take him through shadow. And I've now promised to take him to that beach that father showed me. And those...cars. I wonder if I can make one of those work. It looked rather easy for father. I think I remember how to get back there. If not, I know how to get to the general area...father said there's alot of beaches like that.


Oh..Rae thinks its a good idea for us to have kids. I'll pass that along to Niklas when he comes to bed.

Well, it's finally here..almost. It's tomorrow. The day Niklas and I go through the whole official Mating Ceremony. I don't imagine there will be any problems..Mainly because if there is, Niklas will probably pound whatever it is to a pulp. I'm excited...I can't sleep, even though I should. I know that I should.

Dear Nik,

Glad to hear you managed to...remain alive. Sort of. You really should check for silver. I think that would be good...in my opinion at least.
Look forward to when you get home...I'm missing you alot.


Love,
 Nia

Dear Nik,

Thank you for the teeth, I think I know a jeweler that can make them into some earrings for me. Try to avoid silver from now on. As much as I enjoy scars I'd rather vital things not be damaged. I've sent the orange hat, but I can't promise that it makes it there. You know how things go.

I had a nice visit with Uncle Tristan..after the siege, and contacted me. He's agreed to paint me as a present for you. A pose of your choice. He also asked what I wanted as a present for the mating ritual. What do you think?

Looking forward to when you get home....I'll try not to throw away your clothes. But if I find them dirty on the floor, I'm torching them.


Love,
    Nia.

I spoke with father today...he gave the go ahead for everything, and once I returned with the good news, Niklas officially declared his intentions to Mate with me. I'm still just a little unsure of how things are done. I know there's the challenges, and the paint and running. Is there more? I need to ask Rae...she'll know. She always knows.

Men are strange. That is all I have to say. And yes, all of them, not a particular one. Just..all men are strange. 

So, it seems as though Aryn's gone into heat. I didn't even know that was possible! Shows what I know..I really do need to learn more about father's side of things. Mother never told me about any of that....maybe that's because I don't have to worry about it. I just hope she makes it through it without anything bad happening. I don't think she could handle it if dear Gawain played white knight and got ripped to shreds...or if they chased her down like..well..a bitch in heat.

Times When Three Isn't a Crowd: 2
People Concerned for my Safety: 2
Pirate Threatening to Kidnap for Crew: 1
Drinks That Weren't What They Were Supposed to Be: 1

Drunks Hopped Over: To many to Count
New Places Found: 1

Father decided to dress a few of us up as the seasons, with Rae as summer, Desi as autumn, me as winter (Don't I look good in white?) and himself as spring. Emma was the sky, or something. I wasn't really paying attention at that point, I was just ready to get to the party and start drinking.

Drinking may have been a bad idea...or a good idea. I am unsure, as of yet, if I have made a mess of things...again. I'm currently writing this, hiding in the corner...I don't want to wake my companions up. But I'll find out in the morning if I made a mess. I hope that I did not. I like them both to much for things to be ruined. Well, the one I've only met a few times, but they seem a good sort.

If I did mess things up...I at least had fun doing it. That is something.

Seriously...sometimes I wonder how it is that I can manage to do the simplest things such as tie my shoes, when there are times that I can't even tell you were an urge comes from. Do I think these things through? Or do I impulsively act upon what ever itch I have. I never can really tell.

I bought myself new weapons...they are wonderful. I can say that I thought that through. That was a smart thing..but was it also smart of me to get a weapon for a man I barely know? Admittedly, he's Rae's brother, and Rae is my best friend in the entire world. But really...how smart am I being? Am I simply thinking with certain parts I should ignore? A question for the ages I suppose.

I..can't believe that I just did that. I really can't...Was it the right choice? Was it impulse? I like him..more then I think I've ever liked anyone before in my entire life. But..marriage? Yes..I asked him...and he..said yes? It's so...surreal..How is father going to react? Or..mother for that matter...

Well, mother'll be happy. There's more chance of grandchildren. Father..I fear he might die on me.

So...I brought him to meet my mother...She seemed to approve. That's a good thing...and she didn't try to kill him, bite him or anything else drastic and odd. Now...all I have to do is get father to meet him...that'll be all the important people.

I never imagined that I would even be remotely close to having this discussion with anyone but mother, which that conversation usually consists of my running in fear the moment she mentions that dreaded word...Children. But, I actually had this discussion with...gasp...a boy. Well, man..but that's beside the point. It was a rather odd thing though...it wasn't so much like..lets have kids..as sure, if they end up having those weird Pathi power things, it's okay if they have to go to whatever weird academy you have...as long as I eventually get to see them...then I ran away. 

I can't help it...It's a knee-jerk reaction. Kids...my kids..I wouldn't even begin to know what to do with one. You can't take them drinking. Well, I suppose that you could..but some people might frown upon that. Huh...I wonder if I can pawn them off on mother if I ever have any.

I've always found the woods to be one of my favorite places...this could possibly be because I grew up there. Which, I'm almost certain is the reason. Although, there isn't really a whole lot of people I care to share it with. I found one though...even managed to convince him to come with me to the woods. It was a rather pleasant outting...one I very much wish to repeat, for a lengthier time as well.

Note to self: Bring a blanket and food next time. 

I'll be rather absent for a while, a tree has fallen and destroyed my house. I'm sneaking on from my mother's house at the current moment. Feel free to get ahold of me here, or via email at wyldewynd@yahoo.com. If you choose email, put who you are in the subject and reference Amber, otherwise I'll delete it.